Involuntarily neutral

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-middle-east-22499326

After all these years there's still war in the streets of the middle-east. Bombs exploding on the streets of Turkey and Syria denyes being involved in it. I sometimes wonder when this is gonna end, and after thinking about it I realize that it has no end. Since the human being exists we have always been involved in wars. We fight for money, power, ideals, patrol... we even fight for love, forgetting that once both things were opposed. I'll never understand how someone can kill another person without having any other reason for it than an order. Don't they imagine the eyes of the victim in the moment of receiving the impact of the projectil? Don't they imagine the pain of their mother crying every night? Don't they think about what this person could have done with the time he was supposed to have on earth?
While I'm writing this my eyes start to get humid and I feel like I wanna vomit. There's too much sickness for one world. There's too much pain for too many nations. There's too much evil inside one single person. There is too much shit for me to understand and assume. I get the feeling that I just wanna get away from here, but I can't. And then reality hits me right into my face and I remember that there is only one thing I can do: find peace for myself and don't ever loose hope, because as long as we try maybe things change (it is said).